23 January 2014

An update on the state of things.

My mother passed away last night. She had not been doing so well for the past week or so though so I knew that outside of a miracle this was how it would end eventually.

I still feel like I am in shock at the moment. I really cannot see what life without my mother being alive is going to be like. Even if she was no longer a part of my daily life she was someone I felt I could always count on to just be there.

I want to thank everyone for their support. It meant a lot to me as these past couple of weeks or so have not been easy. So again thank you all.

Will still blog if I feel up to it and have the free time as between the funeral and that I will be moving at the end of the month I have plenty to keep me busy. But right now doing things that stop me from dwelling on this seem to be how my mind wants to cope, so I do not see much changing with how things have been in the recent weeks for the blog.


Angi said...

Actuelly don't know what to write but at least wanted to write that I am terrible sorry for you and I guess nearly no one is able to understand how you feel right now. If it would be me, I guess my life would break in so many parts, I wouldn't be able to think clear and to not cry for a long time!!
I hope that at least in such a horrible time that all the other thing will go well! >-<

nanu b said...

I´m sorry for your lost dear. I have no idea of how to cheer you up, and I know It would be impossible righ now but I hope you can see something bright in all the darkness . I wish you the best

Irea said...

We're not very close, and I don't know much about your life, but I've grown fond of you since we first exchanged comments online, and I wanted to let you know that I'm very sorry for your loss.

I'm very close to my mother, and my biggest fear is the time when I too will lose her. She always tells me that's the only certainty we have in this world, that we all will come to pass one day. We are not taught how to deal with death, so it's only natural we should feel lost.

I do believe that those we love live on in our memories, in our heart, in the beauty that surrounds us.

I send you all my love and a very long and warm hug. Take your time to mourn, to heal, to honour her memory.

Do you know a poem titled "Do Not Stand at My Grave and Weep"? I think the idea ir conveys is very beautiful, and when I lost a person who was very dear to me, it soothed me a little to think that way:

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning’s hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there; I did not die.

There is also a very beautiful song by Hailey Westenra with those lyrics: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YwkX3y8IFpQ

Saori said...

I know you don't know me, and all I know about you are the blog posts. I have been following your blog for a couple of years, and yet, I have only commented very few times. But tonight, reading your entry, I couldn't help but feel what you and your family must be going through. I don't know what you believe regarding life and death, and I don't know what I can tell to make you feel better, because I know that at times like these, there's not much that can make us feel better. I can only think to share with you something that makes me feel a bit better. When you feel like you need some hope, maybe this article can help, like it has helped me and other people I know: http://www.lds.org/general-conference/1994/04/if-a-man-die-shall-he-live-again?lang=eng
I really am not the kind of person that goes around sharing this kind of messages, but I just sincerely hope it can give you some comfort.

Aluakard said...

OH, MY GOD!!! So sad news...

Let God your mother rest in peace!

Please stay strong!!! *hugs*

Okei said...

I'm very sorry for your loss and I hope you are doing okay. I hope your blog will provide you solace. Do whatever it takes to make yourself feel better.